Thursday, January 21, 2010

It's a Thursday

Literally the only reason I am sitting down to write this is 1.) I have the time and 2.) I feel somewhat guilty for having not written in 2 weeks.

You know those moments in life when you finally break after trying to pretend like everything is ok?

I've been pretending like things are ok now for a few months, in one particular area of my life. And it's funny how since this one area of my life suddenly collapsed, the other areas of my life seem to have gotten dragged down with it. I've started to really question what God is doing with me right now. I'm living at home, working 2 part-time jobs, haven't had many opportunities to do music outside of leading worship, and I feel very alone. They always say that you can be in a crowd of people and still feel utterly alone. Well, I would have to argue that it can be much worse to be surrounded by no people, and literally be alone.

Don't get me wrong... I am blessed in many ways. I have a job... 2, in fact. I'm saving money by living at home. I'm learning new things.

But whatever used to make me feel alive has left for a while. I've suddenly felt boring... unattractive... creatively stagnant... spiritually complacent... unhealthy... short-tempered... tired... sad... discontented... and stuck.

I cling to verses about hope during these times.... Romans 5:3-5 comes to mind - a verse I have hanging right above my bed. "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us."

I know this will pass... but today, I have too much time to think about it.

I guess that's what happens when it's a Thursday.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Fantasy Football Champion!

Because I don't think people will believe me unless I post this:


Megan, Congrats are in order for our new fantasy champion, Team Megan (Megan Sauder, for those thrown off by her team name). She succeeded in a little used strategy in fantasy football: do as little as possible and still demolish everyone. In all seriousness though, this points to her ability to draft well, and she did make some key switches in the middle of the season. For her efforts, she will be awarded a prize soon.

Congrats to Team CG for a great run as well, including defeating the very tough Team Micah in the playoffs. Fittingly, the only 2 teams to defeat Micah were the 2 teams that met in the championship game, Megan & CG.

Also, Team CG ended the season with the highest coaching rating, so Dave Affholter will receive an award as well. Both Megan's & Dave's awards will be listed once they have been attained.

Thanks to all owners for playing this year. This was the most exciting fantasy year to date, as all teams could have made the playoffs the last regular season game. That is unprecedented. Your support for our league is appreciated greatly and helps it to continue. We hope all of you will play with us again next year.

Have a great offseason and...

Go Colts!