As you know, music has always been a huge part of my life, and I am so thankful that music is something you can do quite literally from anywhere. I might not be able to make a career out of music living anywhere, but I can always put the guitar over my shoulder and start strumming a familiar tune and I instantly feel more at home wherever I am. Yesterday was a particularly rough day for me -- I haven't been sleeping well with all the various thoughts and emotions I'm dealing with, and so I was completely exhausted. I had hoped to spend the whole, around 10-12 hours, working on my portfolio. After a mere 4 hours of working on it, I was overwhelmed with exhaustion and collapsed on my bed for a 2-hour nap that I don't think anyone could've waken me from if they had tried! I felt discouraged... How am I going to be able to prepare for this interview and journey out to California if I can't even keep myself focused and energized to do 4 hours of work?! I knew I needed some form of encouragement... and I knew music would probably be able to cheer me up!
I decided to peruse the Itunes store and search for songs having to do with California, Los Angeles, or San Diego... where I will be spending 2 weeks for this job interview and visiting friends & family. I found a much larger selection of songs I actually like than I had anticipated finding! One song in particular really caught my attention when I heard it, because it describes exactly where I am right now with this whole California thing, and just with life in general. The song is "California" by Avalon (a band I don't actually typically like haha), and it talks about wanting to follow where God leads and to rebel against living a comfortable, stagnant life.... but instead to be the hands and feet of Christ, living outside of my comfort zone and to ask God to use me wherever I am.... whether that be here at home, in California, or somewhere else. I definitely like the words better than the song as a whole, but either way it's a really great reminder to surrender everything to God and to His will.